I Finally Realized What Happiness Means To Me.

Happiness to me is Love.

— Happiness to me is being surrounded by love. Love from family, those with which blood ties are inconsequential as they just care, pray and look out for me, and make me eat. Love from friends, who do not care how long ago it is that we spoke, or how much different we are in our personalities now, or how much different the places we are in our lives are. Friends that just care and love me for how I am.

— Happiness to me is being in a romantic relationship with someone I absolutely adore, someone who makes me feel safe and comforted by just the mere thoughts of him, someone with whom I find talking to easy, whom I share my burdens, victories, confusion, clarity with, in its raw form, someone who makes me strive to be a better person

— Happiness to me is doing what I love. Happiness to me is teaching, impacting, seeing people learn new things that they can apply to their lives, businesses, and career from me. Happiness to me is speaking, having the opportunities to pour out the little I know. Happiness to me is running digital marketing campaigns and providing solutions/strategies that help businesses achieve their goals. Happiness to me is teaching!!!

Happiness is to me is Wealth.

— Happiness to me is having enough money to spoil my nuclear family, - so my parents have no reason to hustle and my brother has in excess - and extended family, those who have taken me as theirs.

—Happiness to me is having enough money to give and give and give — to my churches, campus fellowship, to charity organizations, to my friends and those less privileged

— Happiness to me is Time! Having/creating enough time to spend with loved ones and time to rest - to sleep.

and then also, Happiness is to me is Fun. Happiness to me is hanging out with close friends, talking, and looking for trouble. I am sha very indoorsy.

Happiness to me is knowing what happiness means to me and understanding that even when I do not have all those things that make me happy, I can still be happy by just deciding to be happy. Happiness is to me is deciding that still, while in this journey — before boo and wealth comes — I will be happy.

What is Happiness to You?

2017 - It has been a HELLUVA Year!

I walked into my home on Thursday and the first thing I noticed about my mum, who was sitting on a couch in the living room, was that her hair has grown back. I can't explain the feeling in words but boy! Was I ecstatic! You see, the last time I saw her, her hair had stopped falling out but it wasn't growing either due to chemo. So, seeing her full hair was like "God! She is actually healed".
In all honesty, all the amazing things that happened to me this year (2017) is nothing compared to knowing for a fact that my mum is doing A-Okay. 

But Yes! I did have an amazing year.

My NYSC Orientation Camp Experience

January 20th, 2017: Four Missed calls.

I had been in my sitting room while my phone was on my bed. Apparently, Joyce had been trying to call me for awhile now but I wasn't picking. I picked up my phone and saw a text 'Where were you posted to'.

'OMG!' I thought to myself. 'Posting is out.'  In that moment, I started shaking, my heart was beating, so I called Mudia to hear from him first.

'Hey you, where dem post you go'.
'Sokoto.
...and I didn't choose it o' he replied.

'Damn! Wow! Now I'm really scared.
Oya stay on the phone, I'm opening NYSC portal now'. I said

A few Seconds later, I was breathing a sigh of relief as I saw on my NYSC Page.

State of Deployment: OYO.

.... Four days later, Joyce escorted me to Iseyin park at Ibadan as I boarded a bus that would take me to the place I was to camp for the next three weeks.

Disclaimer: I can't tell you everything that happened, I'm just going to drop my highlights.

How our Experiences and Information Influences our Perception and Understanding of life.

Have you ever had that eureka moment? You know that moment when suddenly things that were not clear to you once before, becomes really clear and then you realize that you fully understood the situation? I bet it has happened to most people here. I bet we all can, in some way relate to that ‘ah ah! this is it, yeah?’ feeling. I particularly remember one of my most formidable ‘ah ah, so this is it’ moment. It happened a few months ago. I was thinking about the period of my life in the university when my life was filled with so much drama because of my friends. They were a lot of happy times, lessons learnt and growth but also a lot of quarrels, disappointment, depression and hurts (You know how girls can be yea?). So anyway, a few months back, I began to play everything back,

right from the first day I met this particular friend to the day I decided I didn’t want to be friends anymore. I played back as many scenes as I could remember, I analysed each situation, my reaction, what could have been done differently and what really couldn’t be avoided. I spent weeks thinking and analyzing my feelings during that three years and in that period of reflection - unbiased reflection, I got to know myself a lot better and I realized one very shocking fact: that as smart as I and everyone thought I was, I was really naive and gullible at that time. You see that fact - that light, changed a lot of things but most importantly, it gave me a different view of my world as I began to see a couple of things very differently.

When I understood, things that looked complex and really weird, suddenly began to make sense.

You see, we mystify and call complex what we do not know or understand.

This is what I want to explain, the theory of complexity as it relates to how much we know and understand.

Life Lessons 2.0 | What Growing Up is Teaching Me.

Peace Itimi, Why haven't you written in so long?  

''I don't have a good enough reason but allow me to try please? Thanks.
...because so much has been going on in my inside. Because I'm growing up and figuring out who I want to be, what I want to do, & why I should bother doing the things I do. Because I have written so much in my thoughts but haven't been able to pen them now; specifically for this blog. Because.... I have been focused on something else. Bla Bla Bla. 

Truth is, I have been too Lazy and a bit distracted but mostly lazy. Forgive me alright? 

To further redeem myself, I have decided not to let another month pass without writing something down; So here it is.'''

I have been reading alot Gosh; {the feeling of light filling your heart and mind as a new revelation, information comes to you. Awesome!!!}. Learning is fun... No matter the subject, learning is fun. 

Anyway, Moving on, this post is a list of some life lessons I have deliberately learnt in last months. Some I picked from books, some from experiences, some I heard in my spirit, some came as a result of deep introspection, some well... 

Enjoy!

Lesson one: Your life is Your Own. 

What I want in a Man.

I want to crazy or intelligent long conversations - depending on the mood we are in.
I want to feel safe, I want to feel special.
I want to feel challenged and driven to do more, to be more everyday.
I want to get turned on by just seeing you.
I don't want drama, I don't normal.

It Wasn't Easy....But God came through for me

Deep Sigh!

      I planned to write this on Friday night but I was too wired then and so I told myself I was going to write it on Saturday but Saturday, - yesterday - became one of the worst days of my life. Yesterday, a friend had multiple spasms (and when it started, we were alone in my room). The seizures were so bad that it was impossible for three boys and two girls to hold her down. I couldn't even pin down one of her legs because it became heavy.

I Had an Accident that broke my knee

I had a minor accident on Tuesday and since then I have been having problems walking, bathing and holding biro as I have injuries on my palm and on my knees.
The accident has put me in a reflective mood (you know, genius is born in time of depression, desperation or incapacitation...hehe). In the reflective mood, I learnt that I shouldn't kill myself for things that would go on with or without me. When you are dispensable, Act wisely and cautiously. Give your best but keep your sense.

This period has also enabled me redefine some relationships but the most important lesson of all is Your Sh** could be someone's roses.

2014 Thank Yous'.....

Daddy,
You saw me through this year, amidst all I had to deal with you kept me standing. I can't really say anything other than thank you. Daddy, thank you for been there when I wasn't, thanks for looking out for me when I was unfaithful but more I thank you for bringing me out of shit. Daddy, thank you for the successes and ideas you brought me this year. Thank you for the lessons I learnt, Thank you for the friendships that hit the rock, thank for the new friends I made.
Daddy, thank you for the responsibilities you have put on me, thank you for showing me how strong I am. Daddy, thank you for even though the first five months of this year was characterised with much struggle and pain as I had to deal with identity crisis, uncertainties in my convictions and a broken heart, you brought me out of the shit, cleaned me, taught me lessons of life and began to let my light shine.

DISILLUSIONED

Shared dreams
Shredded dreams
Promises made
Promises maimed

My wounds are awake
They bleed red ink
I bottled up these smiles
Hoping to get drowned in them

I Was Asked to Probate

      One year ago, i was sitting on this bench, in a teenage meeting at my church, thanking God for grace and strength to read, and for a successful completion of my 2nd year in the university. One year after, i am sitting on the same bench on the same spot in the a teenage meeting at my church, not sure how or whether to thank God for the completion, (hopefully successful), of my 2nd year...AGAIN!

My Marriage plans

I'm a girl with big dreams and great potentials. There is so much I want to achieve, so much I want to do and impact. At the point when it seemed like I had so much clustered in my mind and thus, no definite career plan, I took time out and wrote down everything I had in mind. Then, I made lists - a list for the things that came naturally and thus would need just a little brushing up here and there,  a list for those that needed professional trainings and or tutorials, and then the academic list. I then went further and set a timeline for each of them

The blessing is in the application

I think the most enjoyable sleep is that which happens after you first wake up in the morning. That 5/10mins sleep you allocate to yourself before you finally stand up to begin the day. That struggle, - the battle between sleeping a little more or standing up to begin the day could be one of the toughest, yet that few minutes of sleep is very relaxing for me. It does something to my system.
No! Chill! This post isn't about sleep. Its about what the Holy Spirit whispered to me while I was observing my sleep after sleep this morning.
He said and I quote 'THE BLESSING IS IN THE APPLICATION'.

Learn to Waste resources...Its for the greater good. Trust me!

I'm on Industrial training at 7up Bottling company, Benin Plant. I work in the quality control department - doing plenty test and analysis at practically all stage of production just to make sure we don't give the citizens of Edo state bad beverage. Its been fun, well at first it was fun, i was curious to know how to do all the tests and what happens in the various stages of production but now that i know alot, i'm getting really bored of the routine and damn! The struggle to get out of bed in the mornings ain't funny but all in all, in the few weeks I have been there, I have Learnt one viable lesson - HOW TO WASTE!

Here's the gist:

Don't run with speed

A few days ago, a friend brought a scripture up for us to discuss (Darlington, God bless you.) And while we were discussing it, I just knew I was going to write my thoughts on it here. For reasons unknown to me I have been postponing it (do you know I used to spell postpone as prospone? Thank God for dictionary and auto correct o), but my mind hasn't stopped brooding on it since and so, here I am, about to type away lessons learned from Heb12:1. Enjoy....

Ask for help!!!

Do you remember what life was likefore Google Maps and smartphones?

Think back to when you were travelling to a destination you had never been before. You would've had some directions prior to setting out. However, 7 times out of 10 you'd still stop a complete stranger and ask for directions just to make sure your on the right path or because the directions and your current location weren't quite matching up. Most of the people you stopped and asked for directions probably hadn't even been to your destination but they were familiar with the area making it possible to give enough guidance to at least get you to the next checkpoint. 

My Birthday Wishlist

In an earlier post, I said my birthday was coming up on the 8th of October (which is 26days away). I'm pretty excited but not really (don't mind me, I just happen to be one of those people that get mixed feelings about birthdays and getting older). Anyway, in honour of my 19th birthday and the people who don't know what birthday present to get me, I  have come up with this wish list (with pictures) to help you all out (yea, I know I'm nice. hehe).

What I want for my birthday.

1) A cute LEATHER back bible that is not King James version please. Preferably, it should be The living translation or The message translation or the New living translation or Good news bible. NO KING JAMES Please.

No idea is too big.

I dont have much to write. I just want to tell you God loves you no matter what. You didnt do anyting to make God love you, you cant do anything to make him stop loving you. Just because you don't have that close consistent relationship with him doesn't stop you from being his child (Not all kids are close to their parents yet they are still their parents kids).

LOOK UP

I was reading a blog (www.stupendousgrace.com) and I saw this post that was majorly a poem written and performed by Gary Turk. It really struck me and so I decided to share the video link and the poem lyrics with you guys. Enjoy and Thank me later.

LOOK UP BY GARY TURK

Video link --> http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Z7dLU6fk9QY

Lyrics:

“I have 422 friends, yet I am lonely.

I speak to all of them everyday, yet none of them really know me.

The problem I have sits in the spaces between, looking into their eyes, or at a name on a screen.

I took a step back, and opened my eyes,

I looked around, and then realised that this media we call social, is anything but

when we open our computers, and it’s our doors we shut.

All this technology we have, it’s just an illusion, of community, companionship, a sense of inclusion

yet when you step away from this device of delusion,

you awaken to see, a world of confusion.

The moments that changed my life.

I don't know the exact moment my life changed. Was it when I was at home giving my colleagues ideas on some ish? Or was it when I became the mediator between my colleagues and our boss? Or was it when I woke up that monday morning and realised,  I was really at the summit? Or was when it i was chosen to lead that little group even though i protested against it? Maybe it was when I unconsciously took up the responsibility to get my group (go team Red, hehe) in place so we could get to work or maybe it was when my group officially made me the leader or maybe it was when I got up on stage and began the presentation or maybe it was day that, over a year ago at a seminar where I met Alex and he gave him his card or just maybe it the day I finally put all efforts in sending my application or maybe it was that day over two years ago when I met Ejay because but for Ejay I wouldnt have gone for the meeting point and i wouldnt have met alex and I probably wouldn't be writing this.