My Deepest Fear ...

What's your deepest fear?
I'm scared of loneliness. I'm scared I'd have no one who cares around, I'm scared everybody would leave at the end of the day. I'm scared the one's I love most would hurt and abandon me, maybe I'd stop being good enough.
I'm scared of being a failure. I'm scared I'd disappoint my mum. I'm scared I won't be as great as everyone thinks, I'm scared the potentials we all see in me is just a fallacy. I'm scared I'd marry the wrong man. I'm scared I'd be a lousy mum, I'm scared I won't be able to protect and provide for my kids as I should.
I'm scared I'd walk out on God, maybe I'd just lose faith in God one day and become a mess, I'm scared God would get worn out from a life time of endowing me with grace and mercy, maybe he'd give up on me.

In a Storm, Faith Prevails

Touchy, super sensitive. Everything gets to heart, cries for no reason, emotional wreck.

Things seem not okay. Plans shattered. People away.

Not enough care, not much love, not much sensitivity, so little appreciation.

Feelings are sky rocketed. Every ish looks bigger than it should be. Every pain cuts deeper than it should. Every tear hurts more than can be handled.

This is one of the rough times, where feelings take control. Even old issues are coming to remembrance. Too many things.

Ever felt like this? That's how I feel, that's how I've felt for over a week now. It sucks right? I so want it to go away. God is testing my emotions, I know but that truth doesn't make it easier to bear everytime the rush comes.

I've prayed, I've sang and I've felt better then five minutes later something happens again and I feel down, hurt. My emotions are too sensitive to even get angry (funny? NAH!)

But something keeps me going, you know what it is? It's the Fact that