Forgive or Not?

It's hard to accept that it happened to me.
Why did it?
Why me?
It hurts and I wish it away.
Don't they feel like they did wrong?
Why treat me this way?
It's like a dagger tore through my chest.
Now I'm left with not just the pain to deal with but also the choice on how to live from now on.
Love or hate?
Forgive or revenge?

It's hard to turn a blind eye at what was done to me but I've come to realize that it's my life, it's my pain and I have to deal with it.
Holding a grudge and hating is like a rocking chair, it keeps you occupied but leads nowhere.
It's time I move pass the hurt, the anger, the pain and even the need to revenge because hating on them won't change what has happened and it certainly won't change their hearts.
I'm just tired of the weight and so it's time I drop it down. I'm not growing nor moving forward, maybe just maybe letting go would lighten me enough to fly.
*You see, Payback may seem right put it only draws you in deeper in black. Grudges may seem comforting, but it's holding you back.
When you let go of grudges and forgive is when you realize that you have set free a prisoner who was yourself.*
I'm going to do this for me. I'd let go and let God - for me.
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It's HARD but it's not impossible.
I just need to lay down my pride and lay before the feet of Jesus all my pains. I'd let his love wash away my guilt, I'd let his love wash away my hurt, anger, my hate. I'd let Jesus transform me from within, Let his love melt away my sorrows.
After all, In Hebrews it was said that Jesus has tasted and experienced every human emotion, struggle, temptation and trial and So he understands perfectly what happens within me and can love it away.
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Let Love wash away your baggage.
It's not easy, it's going to be a process but it'll be worth it. No matter who has hurt you, it's time to let go so you can move on.

NOTE:
Forgiveness doesn't mean reconciliation it just means allowing yourself to stop hurting.
You have forgiven when you stop thinking and wishing bad for someone. When bitterness falls away, then love has stepped in.
Get free! Let love!